I gave it my best shot, I did it my way, I had it all planned out only its gone so pete tong I dont even recognise it any more.
My dentist bill came in as around £800 for emergency treatment, xrays, injections, two fillings, etc, etc, but my insurance wont pay a penny as they claim that it wasnt a true emergency - twin shafting in one day, never good.
I was about to start listing lots of reasons that have gone wrong, but then I realised that although they were all true they are just complaints and obstacles to overcome.
When I was preparing to go travelling around I talked to a lot of people, made a lot of plans and preparations but as it true in all things, life has a way of screwing things up and not being in the UK and a good 12 hours time delay away things are just too hard to try and sort out from abroad.
In my mind I saw traveling around the world to be fun, exciting, adventurous, cool and even kind of sexy, but the truth is far from that.
The only fun is what you make, and when your stuck on buses for 21 hours or airports overnight or in the rain there is only so much fun you can find before it just gets repetetive and boring.
Discovering new places and meeting new people certainly is exciting and adventurous but when things get stolen, lost, corrupted, delayed, broken then they become more like irritations and problems to solve or to avoid in future.
Talking to people and telling stories of all the amazing places you is cool but when those stories are of being stuck indoor because of the rain day after day, week after week then they are far from cool.
Petting Koala bears or holding snakes might be good but when a cockroach the size of a 50 pence piece crawls over your key board or wants to share you breakfast by crawling into your bowl of cornflakes is just getting a little too close to nature for my liking.
When I hear about all the great stage shows to watch it sounded sexy, but when you factor in that none of these places are open at sensible times, they either have huge cover charges or hugely overflated prices for drinks it gets less so and when you are just pestered to part with your cash every few minutes and not left alone to watch the show it peace it loses its appeal.
No one thing is a make or break, but its been like a reality tv show where to make it exciting for the audience the designed has decided to try and throw everything at me one after the other to test my nerve and see if I break, and the point is its stopped being fun, exicting and sexy.
If there was some prize or award at the end of al of it then perhaps it might be worth sucking it up and bullying on, but there isnt and so I am just torturing myself more by staying away when I am not liking it anymore.
Over half my blog hits are from new readers but despite this my blog readership has not increased or exploded as I have continued to travel onward, meaning that most of the people that found my blog didnt like it enough to come back for a second viewing, which does not bode well for hoping to make a book about my exploits when I get back.
I am not sure what I hoped to find by travelling, either in myself or my life, but I dont think that I want to carry on like this and with all the problems and hidden costs involved I no longer have the funds to continue on as I planned so I am now left with cutting short my trip and coming back well before my birthday.
Next thing to do is to cancel many of the remaining flights and see if I can get some sort of refund for them.
I gave it my best, and had a hell of a go at enjoying the first 4 months but I guess maybe i'm not the gun-ho, triple f, carefree, water-off-a-ducks-ass kind of S.O.B. that revels under these kinds of situations or circumstances, I'm just a guy from the UK who wanted to travel and see the world and saw enough to want to come home again.
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