Now that I am in Colombia, I can finally tell a secret. It is not an evil or dark secret, but a light and good secret.
It is also a polite reminder and maybe even a warning to others.
There is an old belief that says on a persons birthday, where friends and family gather to wish you well, they will bring forth a celebration cake with lit candles upon it. It is said that if you can manage to blow out all the candles in one go, without help from anyone else, that it is possible to make a wish that will come true, as long as you do not tell anyone what the wish was.
Now it just so happens, that many years ago, as a small child of about 8 or 9, I made a birthday wish that I wanted to travel all around the world.
A few years later I made another birthday wish that I wanted to make love to many sexy women from all around the world.
Both these wishes were made before I became a teenager and I kept both wishes a deep secret.
Lots of people know that I like travelling but no one knew that I had made it my birthday wish to do so.
Well this weekend I managed to set foot on my sixth continent ( and also my twenty second country ), which is a feat that few people can boast, and all would agree conclusively can count as having "travel all around the world".
In my full thirty one years of being alive I have also managed to have relations with lots of different women from various different nationalities.
At first I thought this to be a blessing, when the figure first reached twenty I considered it a curse, but only now after more still do I realise that it is neither ... it is just exactly what I wished for.
In my late twenties I have often moaned and complained about the fact that I could charm and receive love, but found it impossible to keep it.
Time after time I would meet a girl ( or woman ) that seemed ideal to me, that was pretty, kind and caring. Time after time things would quickly progress and then for no reason whatsoever all these relationships would fail and collapse totally in the space of a few weeks or months, and nothing I could say or do could prevent it.
It was never the case that I was dumped because I was a bad person as I never beat them, cheated on them, abused them mentally or physically, stole from them or failed to give them the respect, honesty or attention that they wanted or craved.
On all the occasions I then asked my friends and / or family what was I doing wrong, and each time the answer came back slightly different, but most of the time it was said that I was trying too hard, too eager or just going for the wrong type of girl.
I have never fully agreed with any of these hypothesis, but equally I have never had a better argument or theory to suggest. Until now...
My new theory is that no self respecting woman would be happy for her partner to go gallivanting around the world and making love with different women all the time. However the magic of my childhood wish was such that it proceeded my more mature and reasonable request of wanting to find but a single partner and settle down to raise a family.
In short, I was destined to never find true love until I had first lived out my childhood wishes.
Now few people these days believe in real magic, this I know to be true, and I do not expect to receive many positive replies or comments to this entry. Some will think that this is my own way of justifying my actions, and I admit that from the outside it could seem like a logical conclusion to come up with.
However, anyone who really knows me, knows that I am a strong believer in morals and righteousness, that I disapprove of playboys and those who go around breaking hearts without a care, and that it has been my strongest desire to find a partner to settle down with. Coming from a large and close knit family, and hating the idea of being an "old" father, none who know me would say that I live or enjoy a Casanova lifestyle.
I do not go out to pubs or clubs, where the chances of finding a one-night-stand are at their highest, and I have do not attempt to have more than one girlfriend on the go at any one time. Neither do I go around boasting or bragging about the amount of women I have had, or what I intend on doing with the next one.
Most of the time I keep myself to myself, refrain from discussing most of my sexual history, and am only ever on the lookout for a woman that I can laugh with, enjoy a good conversation with, happily introduce to my family and will at least get on with my friends.
So, although there might be many who till read this entry and think I am trying to find some sort of absolution for a life of sin, anyone that knows me will know the truth.
All I do hope is, now that I am content to have been around the world, and somewhat shamefully can admit to have more partners than anyone else I know, that the magic of the wish will now have now resolved itself fully and thus I can perhaps at last find true love and happiness, enough to get married and raise a family like most other people.
And the reminder or warning I mentioned at the beginning is simple and as old as the birthday belief itself, and it is thus ... "BE CAREFUL OF WHAT YOU WISH FOR, AS YOU MIGHT JUST RECEIVE IT".
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